Odi et amo. Quare id faciam, fortasse requiris. Nescio, sed fieri sentio et excrucior.
A friend shared this quote with me a little over a year ago. It’s a deep, Roman poem called Catallus 85. While the meaning has been long studied, I think the general gist of the story says many relevant things.
The hardest part of love is understanding the torment of emotions.